How much of my mind do I own?
I believe myself to be the man who is deciding to go to the gym, deciding to go to bed early, deciding to take classes in my spare time to better myself, but is that really who I am? I do wish to define myself that way, so why is that not how I live? Is the part of my being that I believe myself to be just too weak to conquer the moment? Or am I just not that man? Surely to any outsider my goals will not affect how they define me, only my actions will. So why is it that I want to define who I am based on intention and judge strangers based on outcome?
How could I possibly assume I have full control of my faculties when I tell myself that I need to start doing something to better my life and then just never follow through with it? How can I assume I'm not insane after that? It seems like that is barely a step away from multiple personality disorder. When do I know if I'm crazy?